Nobody
says it like Dorothy
Black (The Dot Spot)!
Probably
because she is undercover, and I would be burnt at the stake for saying the
things I really want to some days.
I loved
this post of hers what-the-fuck-happened-to-this-week! I related to most of
what she said.. Well except for the whole sex thing, because well I aint
getting any.
But I know
how she felt. Some days the aggression I feel just floors me, and I could quite
easily do grievous bodily harm to some people. And I hate feeling like that,
because it's just not me. But sometimes, ne.. We just can't help it.
So thanks
for saying it for me, you rock!!
And I
quote:
it sucked
because every plan i made was unmade.
it sucked
because it dawned on me this week that i might not know how to fuck normally
anymore & because i realized the last truly awesome actual, connecting sex
i had was over a year ago.
it sucked
because i’m intensely disapproving of winter and being freezing.
it sucked
because of people who blow hot and cold; because of crossing limits i don’t understand
with people i barely know.
it sucked
because validation still makes me happy and feel more secure.
it sucked
because i don’t know when to shut my mouth. or open it.
it sucked because i just want to find a reset button without losing everything i’ve gained.
it sucked because i just want to find a reset button without losing everything i’ve gained.
it sucked
because it just sucked. because i have so much on my list of Things to Do and
all i really want to do is lie on the cushions in front of a fire, naked and
warm with someone yummy and dissolve into feeling.
it sucked
because the whole week felt like i was grasping at straws and drowning in the
process.
........ sigh........ i love that.....
